Surrender can be a complicated thing and is often much easier said than done. I stumbled across a quote while flipping through one of my favorite books "A Return to Love"- by Marianne Williamson. The quote read:
Where we have an attachment to results, we tend to have a hard time giving up control. But how can we know what result to try to achieve in a situation when we don't know what's going to happen tomorrow? What do we ask for? Instead of "Dear God, please let us fall in love or please give me this job." we say, "Dear God, my desire, my priority is inner peace. I want the experience of love. I don't know what would bring that to me. I leave the results of this situation in your hands. I trust your will. May your will be done. Amen.
This quote was very powerful for me. Surrender has been a major theme in my life lately. I've been going through sort of an "in between" period in my life, trying to find comfort in the uncomfortable. As I get older I realize more and more how little control we have over what happens around us. Our power lies in our reactions, our perceptions, our thoughts, and the energy we put out into the world as it is mirrored back to us. Life is filled with ebbs and flows like a boat sailing through the ocean. Sometimes we sail through muddy choppy waters and sometimes we sail on a calm peaceful sea. We choose whether we ride the wave or swim against the currant. You can say surrender is when you choose to flow with the currant. Often times we find it easy to surrender the things we have the least attachment to.
I know for me, in my life, there are certain areas where I have an easy time surrendering. I feel such a powerful knowingness in terms of my path that I have no doubt the universe will see me through. But then there are other areas in my life where I feel insecure. It's not that I don't trust the universe to have my back, but my fear gets the best of me sometimes. It's interesting because I'll go through phases where I am able to let go and things just flow and work. But then something will happen that will trigger a fear or insecurity inside of me, and my reaction is to take matters into my own hands and attempt to control the situation. This usually includes me trying to force an outcome before it's divine timing and that ALWAYS blows up in my face.
When I take a moment to check in with myself, I realize how ridiculous I'm being in my need for control. I start thinking back upon my life and the truth is the universe, has always had my back. Even when I encountered hurt and challenges that at the time were devastating, in hindsight, are now a point of gratitude for me because it closed the doors to paths that were not meant for me.
Universe, God, our Angels,, and Guides can see the pieces of the puzzles that we don't have access too. Which is why we don't always understand things in the moment. But be assured that they are always lighting our path.
It is our resistance to what is that causes us pain.
The picture at the head of this blog post is of me and one of my many soulmates, my sweet rescue puppy Jiggy McGee who is one of the many reasons I smile each day.